"My Dark Journey True Part 1 & 2" written by bifunlady
I have always kept a journal since I was a little girl so it is very natural to me and I am very fast doing it. It is also in a large part my therapy this is how I lay on a couch and talk to a shrink. That being said, I will read each and every comment and I look forward to seeing them.
My Dark Journey
A true story about this submissive and her fall from Grace
PART ONE
Thursday morning started out as any other. I woke up at 6:15 am and saw the sun was already starting to chase the night away. I felt Paul’s arms around me as my ass pressed into his groin. I love that feeling. Kathy had her arms around Paul on the other side of him. I really love my life and the special ness of moments just like this, it is the icing on the cake. I carefully dislodged my self from Paul’s arms and slowly but carefully lowered the sheet covering his body. Bending over I lovingly took his cock between my soft full lips and began to lightly suck and lick his semi erect cock. I felt Kathy stir and looking up I saw her sleepy face smiling at me. I saw that her hand had already found her pussy as she was lazily running her fingers over her wet slit. Paul’s cock was now hard in my mouth as I sunk my mouth down taking his full length in my mouth. I ran my tongue over his cock as I sucked him in my mouth.
After all these many years together, I knew exactly what he likes. By the same token after all this time, I know there are many mornings where he pretends to be asleep so I can wake him with our ritual morning blow job. I still find it a nice way to start our day either way we seem to all be happier because of this. Kathy was licking her nipples with her tongue as she fingered her clit watching me sucking Paul’s cock. I felt Paul’s cock get very hard and hot just before he fired a huge blast of cum into my mouth. I quickly swallowed his cum and applied a little more pressure to the head of his cock with my lips and I rolled my tongue around it savoring the taste of his cum and at the same time increasing the sensations of his orgasm. Glancing up I saw Paul smiling watching me suck his cock as Kathy moaned a little louder as she neared her own climax. She started bucking as she fingered herself to a massive orgasm. I licked the last remaining drops of cum from the head of Paul’s cock and crawling over him kissed Kathy with his cum still on my lips. She pushed her tongue into my mouth as we shared the remains of his cum.
“Coffee ready” Paul said knowing full well it wasn’t because I was just sucking his cock.
“Asshole”
I said as I got out of bed to head to the bathroom before heading downstairs to make our morning coffee. I sat down on the toilet to pee leaving the bathroom door open and I heard Kathy call out laughing “we can hear you”.
I chuckled to myself, but I really had to go. Both dogs were outside our bedroom door. We have two dogs now, we bought Jake a mastiff Lab mix from a kennel out in Lancaster. Jake was a special trained dog and was almost three years old. It hasn’t taken him long to become part of the family. I petted both dogs and they followed me downstairs but not before sticking their snouts into my pussy and ass. Their noses felt cold this early in the morning and I quickly broke away from them to go make the coffee. I made the coffee and within moments of doing so, Kathy came strutting into the room, naked as the day she was born her heavy breast swinging and bouncing as she walked. She was followed by Paul who had a pair of gym shorts on. I wore my black silk robe and I quickly got out the coffee cups and poured everyone a cup from the still perking coffee. I am the only one of us who drinks her coffee black so I got out the sugar and half and half for the others. As they were fixing their coffee Kathy said:
“I wouldn’t be home tonight; I am going to see my parents”.
“How late will you be home” I asked.
“I was planning on spending the night” Kathy answered.
“Did you ask permission” Paul asked?
The color drained from Kathy’s face as she looked at Paul and started to stammer unable to speak.
“Who will take care of the dogs, when you’re gone” Paul stated flatly.
Kathy scrambled to get off her stool and get down on the floor with the dogs. Paul waited a second or two before saying:
“Kathy I was kidding, get up”.
A very relieved Kathy got up off the floor as the dogs pawed and licked at her. Paul got up and called for the dogs and let them outside to run around in the backyard.
Paul sat back down and reached over and placed his hand under Kathy’s full tit as if he was weighting them with his hand. Knowing when to make my exit I got up and went to take my shower so I could get dressed and leave for work. I got to work early for a change and had a very busy day and before I knew it, it was time to go home. Since getting the new dog both of the dogs have started greeted me at the front often trying to mount me the moment the door opens. I ruined a $50 skirt last week, so before opening the front door I removed $400 business suit I was wearing, thanking god that our house was set back far from the street. I walked into the house wearing my matching green bra and panties along with the thigh high stockings and heels. No dogs greeted me, they weren’t there, I saw Paul sitting in the living room which was off the foyer and walked in to see him. He answered my question without me asking.
“Kathy felt guilty and came home early before going to see her parents and took care of Blackie and Jake”.
I smiled at Paul and said:
“You trained your subs well”.
As soon as I said that I felt an urgent need to leave the room and go change what I was wearing. I was feeling my own submissiveness kicking in. I haven’t talked about it a lot in my stories, but Kathy and I are very submissive. We even have house rules which we try extremely hard to never break. One of the house rules is that we are required to always wear while inside the house these silk camisoles with these tiny matching transparent panties. This is our uniform while in the house. We have 24 different colors to pick from on any given day. I often wear thigh high stockings and heels as I like doing so. Dressing like this all the time at first felt weird and it has let to some awkward moments when people stop over the house, but now it feels normal and what we do when inside our home. It also makes us feel very sexy all the time, which I guess is part of the reason for the rule.
I excused myself and hurried from the room to go change into the house uniform and thought about the second house rule. The second rule was short and to the point and sounded like one of the Ten Commandments. The second rule is “Refuse No Male”. Sounds simple to the point, but this is a very hard rule at times to follow. When this rule was first put into place, Paul informed us that the dog and now dogs were males just like human males and we could never refuse there advances. Sounded like a fun rule until we had guest. My interpretation of the rule is that while I will not walk up to any guest in our home and drop to my knees to service him, however I would not refuse that same male if he walked over to me and pushed me to my knees or bent me over the arm of a chair. I try and treat our dogs the same way. If I found myself in a few compromising position with the dogs, I would never push them away as that is against the rules. Kathy interrupts the rules much the same way as I do. I walked downstairs in my jade colored camisole and Paul had a scotch on the rocks waiting for me which surprised me. He doesn’t like me to drink as I do tend to drink too much at times.
Paul was his usual charming self and time just seemed to fly by as I continued to drink my scotch. I was feeling no pain and had a nice buzz going and was very relaxed. Blackie our black lab came wandering into the room and walked over to me and stuck his snout into my pussy. I spread my legs wider and allowed him to nibble and lick at my panty covered pussy. I looked over at Paul to make sure that he was seeing that I was obeying the house rules. He was watching me so I allowed myself to really get into what Blackie was doing to my pussy. I even pulled my panties aside to give him freer access. His wonderful long rough tongue brought me quickly to orgasm and I trembled and fought to keep my legs open and my pussy spread from the onslaught of his talented tongue. Blackie pulled away from me and laid on the floor while rolling on his back and curled up his paws like a puppy. His large cock was partly out of his sheath. Our dog has always loved his cock sucked and here he was now looking for me to service him again.
“Refuse no males” I happily said as I got up off the sofa to suck the dog cock. I was in such a good mood.
“Wait”
Paul said as I spun and looked at him.
“Let me get you another drink, we need to talk”.
“Ok”
I said wondering what the hell was up. This was going to be my fourth scotch. Paul came back and handed me my drink as he sat back down. The silence in the room was deafening before Paul slowly started to speak.
“Do you remember last November” He carefully said.
“Sure I do” I slurred wondering why he asked me if I remembered a month. I sipped my scotch and waited for him to start talking again.
“Do you remember the weekend that Mike and Sam were here with Kathy?”
“Yes sure I do”.
How could I not remember, that was the weekend that Kathy took Blackie’s knot in her ass for the first time. It was also the weekend that she did a double anal with Sam and Mike. She can be insane at times. Sam had a black cock thicker then a coke can, he was huge. I remember that mine and Kathy’s ass was on the agenda for most of that weekend.
“Well I have something to tell you and I don’t want you to get upset”
“Upset about what” I asked Paul.
“That weekend when Sam and Mike where here, our son came home”.
“Yea ok, so” I said, what he was saying was just not registering in my mind.
“He was here off and on for the three days, he saw everything”
Suddenly it was as if someone punched me in the stomach. I felt sick to my stomach as Paul’s words sunk into my mind and I realized that my son my baby had seen me pull a black cock out of Kathy’s ass, rip off the condom and suck his cum in my mouth. He saw another black man fuck me in the ass as I moaned like a bitch loving it. As if it couldn’t get as worst, he also saw me suck and fuck our dog. A dog he petted and played with. Not the normal things one expects your mom to do. I jumped up covering my mouth with my hand as I rushed out of the room. I ran into the bathroom where I spilled my guts into the porcelain bowl. I vomited until there was nothing left in my stomach to throw up. Every time the image entered my mind of him watching me I had thrown up. I cleaned myself up and gargled with mouthwash to take the awful taste out of my mouth. I went back out to the living room as I wanted to find out if he knew any more.
“You alright” Paul said to me.
“No” I shot back.
“How can I be alright” I said crying.
My heart hurt and felt heavy in my chest.
“Tell me more” I managed to choke out.
“I spoke to him a few times about it and everything seems to be alright now” Paul said.
I stared at him blankly not sure what he was saying. All I could think about was what my son had seen me, his mom do. I felt my tears swell up in my eyes as Paul’s words sounded very distant very far off, as he spoke to me.
“He called me back in January a few times to talk about it” Paul said never taking his eyes off of me.
“That is how and when I found out about it” he said.
“He said he was a bit taken back at first by the depravity he witnessed”
“But I explained to him our lifestyle and how certain women, certain people have needs”
“Needs” I asked not fully understanding what he was saying.
“Yes a need to please, the need to be a submissive even a need to be a slut”.
“You told him I was a slut, you told our son I was a slut” I shouted not believing what I just heard.
“No I told him that you need to be a slut that you need to be a submissive”
“When did all of this happen” I asked him.
“Back in January” he said.
“January” I screamed.
“It’s almost May and you’re telling me now” I yelled as I started to sob and cry. I was trembling as I listened to what Paul was saying. I also thought back to the times that I had seen my son since he found out about us. I buried my face in my hands as I sobbed and cried for myself and for my family. I hurt all over.
I stood up in front of Paul in my silk camisole and as I trembled I said:
“Two weeks ago when our son caught me dressed like this, he already knew that I fucked dogs and black men”?
“Was that your plan?” I screamed at him.
I wanted to punch him, how could he not tell me.
”You both even made comments about my ass”
“It really is a work of art” Paul said.
“What is” I said not really listening.
“Your ass” Paul said.
“My ass, you want our son to have my ass” I screamed.
“Refuse no males; I am glad you’re starting to understand”
Paul said as he got up and walked away from me.
I felt my stomach tighten and my heart felt heavy and sad as his last words to me continued to ring in my ears. I fell to the floor like a sack of potatoes I was completely overwhelmed by the situation and I passed out. I woke up and for a second thought I just had a very bad dream, a nightmare. Then it all came rushing back, my husband wanted me to be submissive to our son like I was to him. See, I can’t even come right out and say it. He wants me to refuse no male even if it is my son. I felt myself getting sick again and rushed off to the bathroom. I vomited again as the thoughts of Paul telling me he wanted me to be submissive to my son played over in my head. To allow him to have me to do with me what he wanted to, like others have done. I was weeping and sick from the idea and the images of what I saw myself doing inside my head.
Our dogs Blackie and Jake were waiting for me when I came out of the bathroom. With Kathy not being home and me being a basket case, they were lonely. I petting each of them and spoke softly to them. With the refuse no male rule these dogs saw a lot of action. Before we got Jake, we fooled about with Blackie just about every day but because there was two of us, we took turns and played with Blackie on different days and sometimes we all played together which was always fun. But once we got Jake things changed over night, I don’t know if it was the alpha dog thing kicking in but the dogs have been mounting us most days 3 or 4 times each just about every day. As soon as one jumps off the other dog takes a few licks at the others cum running out of our pussies and then mounts us. Once we come home from work, many nights it is almost non stop sex. That is how it has been over the last couple of weeks, since we got Jake. I have also had a hard time adapting to how hard Jake pounds my pussy when he fucks me. He also has the largest knot that I’ve ever seen. My pussy was sore for well over a week and I found myself standing at work rather then sitting because I was so sore and it hurt.
Blackie sat in front of me as I stood in the foyer and put his snout into my pussy as his thick tongue pushed my thin silk panties aside. I froze where I stood allowing the dog to lick me. In my head, I heard a voice sounding like god himself telling me “to refuse no males”. As I listened to the voice in my head, I felt Teri slipping away and the submissive slut that I’ve become start to take over. I found myself wanting to please these males the dog that were before me even though a few moments ago I was sick to my stomach with grief over my son discovery of just how low his mother had sunk. What she had become. I stood there thinking but yet fully conscience of the pleasure I was getting from the dog’s long rough tongue. I just stood there as the image of my son watching me suck and fuck black men and dogs, burned into my mind. Our new dog Jake the large mastiff lab mix we just got, jumped up and wrapped his paws around me trying to pull me down to the floor as he licked my face. I felt like a puppet on a string as I allowed myself to submit to their will and to be taken right there on the hard tile floor. Even with the sick thoughts of my son watching me degrade myself, I gave in to the voice in my head and I did not refuse the males. Right now I hated the submissive I was but I still couldn’t stop myself.
Jakes weight and big body almost made me fall over as I still had on my high heels. So I let myself go softly down to the floor as I pulled my panties down my long legs. I managed to get up on my hands and knees as both dogs jumped excitedly on and over me. They didn’t have any socks or booties on and their nails hurt. I decided that the pain was good and might help me block the evil thoughts and images I had in my mind.
Blackie stood up in front of me as I felt his front paws land on my back, my silk camisole gave me some protection. He started to jerk his hips as he hind legs danced on the tile floor inching himself ever so close to me. I could hear the click of his nails on the floor and I could see some of the dog’s cock sticking out of his sheath as his hips jerked back and forth. Jake was nibbling at my pussy and I cried out from an extra hard little bite. His long tongue started to lick my sex from my pussy to my ass that felt very good. Blackie’s cock was now hitting me in the face banging into my cheek and near my eye, it hurt and I turned my head away from him to protect myself.
I don’t know why but I could feel the wetness from my own pussy dripping down my thighs. I was extremely turned on by what seemed like a movie playing inside my head. In my mind, it was all surreal as I watched my son watch me do all those depraved things he witnessed a few months ago. I felt a knot grow in my stomach from the sickness of my thoughts. Jake yanked me back to reality as I felt his heavy body land on my back. His strong paws gripped and grabbed at me pulling me up closer to him. Blackie jumped down and removed his paws that were leaning on my back. He walked around me very excited and licked my face a few times before he barked. Jake was stabbing me with his cock as he drove it over and over into my ass and legs trying to find his mark. The heavy weight of the dog on my back made me think twice about removing my hand from the floor that I was bracing myself with to help him. I tried to move my ass to give him a better angle to enter my pussy. Just as I felt his cock enter my pussy and start to grow inside me I heard footsteps on the stairs and looked up to see that it was Paul coming to see what all the barking was about.
Jake started to pound my pussy and I screamed because he was really hurting me. I tried to crawl away from his cock which only made him clutch me tighter and drive his cock and rapidly growing knot deeper inside of me. Paul walked near me and told Blackie to lie down. The dog was now on his side almost directly in front of my face. I shifted my body so my elbows were now on the cold hard tile and reached for his cock with my hand. He was still to far away from me to suck him and Paul bent over and pushed the dog, sliding his body and cock along the tile floor so that it was closer to my mouth. I took the part of his cock into my mouth that was sticking out of his sheath and felt it immediately grow in my mouth. This dog has always loved having his cock sucked.
Jake was really pounding his cock into me and I felt his knot going in and out of my pussy. I pushed back with my ass and his knot slipped inside of me, I was so wet. Blackie was spraying pre-cum into my mouth as I sucked his cock. I swallowed some, but also let some drip out. His pre-cum doesn’t have a particularly strong taste but there is a lot of it. I moaned as I sucked Blackie dog cock as I could feel Jake’s knot growing bigger inside of me. I felt Jake thrust himself harder into me but then he slowed and stopped as his knot felt huge inside my pussy. I felt myself getting all gooey inside and it felt warm even hot and I knew he had started to cum inside of me. That feeling triggered an orgasm from deep inside of me and it was so strong that my body sagged from the strength of my climax and my chest and tits hit the cold tile floor. My tits were crushed under my weight and from that of the dog and I can’t explain why but it made me cum again. It was almost like I was out of control as my mind raced full of thoughts dark and evil thoughts.
Blackie had semi rolled onto his back and was now jerking his cock into my mouth because I wasn’t sucking it as I had been before. Jake seemed to be pressing more of his cock into me and I had that extremely uncomfortable painful feeling of when the dog’s cock touches the opening of my womb. It hurts but I tried to make the pain into pleasure. Blackie started whining and making the cries that he does when he is about to cum. I felt his hot cum shooting into my mouth. Long sticky jets of his cum filled my mouth as I swallowed quickly trying to keep up. I hadn’t been paying any attention to Paul who was jerking off his fat cock while watching me being taken by the two dogs. I sensed his presents rather then saw him just before I felt a sharp pain as Paul’s fingers were in my hair as he pulled my head to turn towards him. He had wrapped his fingers in my long red hair to turn my head. Just as my face turned towards him, I felt his cum splash on my face, Paul always cums a lot. Over and over his cock spewed his cum on my face as the dog’s cock continued to cum onto the other side of my face and into my hair and cheek. Paul wiped his cock clean in my hair and just dropped my head which he had been holding by my hair and walked away and went up the stairs. He didn’t say anything to me. The roots of my hair hurt from how hard he had pulled my hair but being the good submissive I am, I didn’t say anything and went back to sucking the dog’s cock. My face and hair was covered in cum from the dog and Paul.
Jake started to jerk his hips trying to pull his cock out of me. Fuck did that hurt! His knot is the size of a small grapefruit. He pulled again from the side and I fell over onto my side from the strength of the pulling dog. I was still attached to him as he yanked and pulled as I screamed and yelled as he fought to get his knot out of my pussy. I tried to keep his knot inside of me until it shrunk down some more, it hurt so bad. I felt his nails dig into the back of my thighs as he squirmed and slipped on the tile trying to pull his knot out. I screamed bloody murder as he gave one last mighty pull and his knot and cock came flying out of my pussy. I felt the warm dog cum running out of my pussy and over the side of my ass as I laid there on my side. I was in a lot of pain and I started to cry as Jake licked up his cum that was on my ass and still flowing out of my pussy. My crying turned into deep sobs as I remembered again what Paul had told me about my son. I felt a lot of angry towards him at that moment for waiting so long to tell me about being seen by my son. I felt hurt and betrayed at what he expected me to do. I thought back to our family gatherings over Thanksgiving and Christmas and got sick to my stomach once again and started to throw up. My mind raced to thoughts of any signs that my son had treated me any differently when he saw me. I thought back to his long stares at my body how he kissed me and when he hugged me from behind. Did he really press himself into my ass? I coughed and spit up cum as I lay on my side on the hard tile floor. Let me tell you now, cum does not taste very good the second time around. I got up and ran to the bathroom with the dogs chasing me still looking for more.
I made sure I mopped up the floor cleaning up the dog cum and my vomit before taking a shower and heading off to bed. I didn’t sleep well and tossed and turned and had terrible dreams and nightmares all night long. I kept having dreams about my son watching me fucking and sucking the black men and the dog. I am not sure which thought was worst in my mind. I overslept but woke up to see Kathy giving Paul his ritual morning blow job. I was still very mad at him for not telling me what he knew about our son for so long and glad that I didn’t have to suck his cock this morning. I did notice I was very wet and my thighs felt sticky from my dreams about being watched by my son. Kathy had come back very late last night from visiting her parents. She didn’t stay overnight and I wondered if Paul had made her feel guilty. I got up without saying anything before she finished blowing Paul and went downstairs to make the coffee. When you have a relationship such as we have, it is hard to fully convey just how mad or pissed you are, as there is always the other woman or wife. I took my coffee and went down to the other bathroom to get ready for work, leaving Paul and Kathy in the kitchen by themselves.
Work dragged on all day and my mind was often very far away thinking about Paul and my son. I kept thinking about what he wanted me to do. We were about to have an early heat wave in April and we had all made plans to spend the weekend on our 40 foot sailboat. With temperatures forecasted to be into the 90’s it should be a wonderful weekend. But I wasn’t sure with all that was on my mind I could really enjoy it.
We arrived early at the boat as we all managed to get to sleep early the night before. We had a very early evening with our dogs. Blackie and Jake always want me and then Kathy as soon as we walked in the front door. Sometimes it is hard to even get undressed as they are so excited. It was good not to have a late night as pleasurable as they may be. We set sail for Cape May which was about 48 miles a way. We had a wonderful sail some very good wind as Kathy took her time getting her sea legs back. After a wonderful sail we arrived in Cape May late in the Afternoon and headed to a cove just off the Coast Guard Station that was a nice place to anchor the boat. Kathy and I laid a heavy towel at the bow of the boat and prepared to start sunning ourselves in the rare hot April sun. There was no one around so we took off our tops so we wouldn’t have any tan lines. In my case being a redhead, so I could just be red all over as I really don’t tan well. We may sure to wave to the few boats that pasted by, making sure that they saw us in all our topless glory. It was fun.
Kathy worried about Paul getting lonely but I knew she just wanted to spend time alone with him. So I got out my laptop as we have wifi on the boat. I chatted with some friends online about my worries about my son and I. They were all extremely helpful and I want to thank all of you. You know who you are. I did manage to get my nerve up and confront Paul in private about what he had in mind for our son and the three of us. Knowing that Kathy had no idea what was going on made it hard to be upset and not raise your voice. I admit I failed I couldn’t do it and Kathy overheard much of what was going on and being said. To my surprise the women that my children called Aunt Kathy for over 16 years wasn’t overly concerned or upset. I started to think that maybe I had my head screwed on the wrong way.
I was still mad at Paul and if I dare admit it, mad at myself for all the thoughts going on in my own head. Later that night I learned something else, something that made a lot of sense to me, something that might explain why I heard all the voices in my head. Paul told me not to worry as he would adjust the tapes. I didn’t know what he was talking about and neither did Kathy. He told us about the hypnotic tapes he played at night for us, to strength our submissiveness. Frankly I wasn’t shocked at the news because when I was still in school he had made a tape for me to help me concentrate and relax. It worked extremely well and I found myself using it almost daily. Also in our college days Paul was always a big hit at parties when he would use the hypnotism on a volunteer. Kathy had no problem with it as anything Paul does is okay with her. I wasn’t sure I had a problem with it but it could explain the tremendous urges I always have to please.
Kathy and I also did talk about how when we first entered the house we felt like we had to stop everything and go change into what we were expected to wear, our silk camisoles. We agreed that it was probably because of the tapes. Paul and I continued to argue or at least I did about how he was expecting me to behave with and in front of our son. I was also informed that this coming Thursday the 30th we were having company at the house. Company was our word for guest that Kathy and I would entertain. I was also told that our son Brad was coming home on Thursday and he would be part of that company. Kathy also added “did I tell you I am leaving for a business trip on Wednesday?” No she didn’t and I felt like a ton of bricks had been dropped on me but being on a boat there was no place for me to run away to.
My heart ached and my head throbbed as I felt the weight of the world on me. I can’t recall ever being as upset or unhappy as I was now. I retreated to the bow of the boat as Kathy and Paul fished off the stern hoping to catch a fish or two for dinner. I didn’t speak at all at dinner, the fish was wonderful. I stayed up late chatting online trying to sore out my feeling. I also got up the nerve to call my son Brad, whom I hadn’t spoken to since I learned about him knowing about me and what we do, just the other day. I trembled as I pressed the key on my cell phone to call him. I tried to sound as cheery as possible, making sure to tell him about the wonderful sail we had to Cape May. He sounded normal to me; I would never have known that he knew anything about what we did and what he saw. I finally said:
“Your father spoke to me and I now know what you saw last fall, you have to understand that it wasn’t intended for you to ever see that or even know about it”
“I shutter to think what you must think of me”.
Then I fell silent and waited for him to respond as I wasn’t sure what else to say to my soon to be 22 year old son.
“I don't or ever plan on telling my sister about what I saw or what will ever happen between us, so you can rest easy about that”.
There was a long pause from Brad and I hadn’t even thought about my daughter, until now and then he said:
“I want you to know that you will always be my mom, nothing will ever change that, I love you”
He paused again thinking about what he was going to say to me next. All the while I waited for him to speak again; my mind was racing thinking about what he did say so far. What he meant by what he said.
“I want you to know that at first I was really taken back by the depravity that I witnessed mom and it took me a short while to really get into what you and my dad were doing”
He paused again before continuing as I felt terrible hearing my son use words like depravity when he referred to something that I had done.
“I talked and agree with Dad that certain women should be treated certain ways, he explained a lot to me”.
He paused once more and then said quickly.
“I never knew we had such a lucky dog there are people even friends of mine who would kill to be him”
“I know now you really enjoy being a slut and please don’t ever say anything to me again about listening to rap music”
I felt like I had been hit in the face with a 2x4 and I was speechless at what he just said and I felt very small that he could even say anything like that to me. My heart was pounding in my chest and I felt my face getting burning hot. It really sounded like I was talking to his father and not my son. Brad continued:
“I now know that for some women like you and Aunt Kathy it is good for them and their souls to be like that, I understand that Mom, Dad told me all about it”
Again another long pause as I again fought urges to throw up, while waiting for him to say something. I wondering if he was taking his time saying things this way, just to torture me or was he having a problem saying these things to me his mother. It sure didn’t sound like he was having problems saying them.
“Hey Mom I understand how a women like you in any other type of relationship would have trouble dealing with things, if they are not treated as a submissive”
“That ok and I was even surprised by myself at the immediate connection that I felt for you in a sexual way”
“You’re a very beautiful and attractive woman anyone can see that and the only way I can explain it is that I lust after you just like most of the men who meet you”.
“Brad, I’m your mother” I managed to say.
“Yes I know you are and I am really looking forward to seeing you again on Thursday but I am really looking forward to seeing the other side of you that I witnessed from afar”.
“That wasn’t for you to see, please remember I am your mother” I said again.
“I do remember Mom and that is what makes it so special, I know how much you love to please dad told me”
“Besides Dad thinks I could be the perfect person for you to be submissive to that I could take care of you”
“I wish Thursday was tomorrow”
I really didn’t know what to say to him and I swear I could hear Paul’s voice inside my head telling me to relax that I really wanted to please Brad. So I quickly said “good bye” and hung up the phone. I sat there for a long time trying to understand what he said and what I was going to do. I never thought I ever hear him talk to me like that.
When I went below to the cabin, Paul and Kathy were fast asleep. His semi hard cock was still in her mouth. I didn’t sleep with them and was up early the next morning.
My Dark Journey
A true story about this submissive and her fall from Grace
PART TWO
It was another long night of bad dreams. I made coffee and the wonderful smell woke up Paul and Kathy. We were all enjoying our morning coffee. Kathy and I were in the cockpit of the boat, we just had on t-shirts on with no bottoms, and my t-shirt didn't even go past my hips so my ass and shaved pussy were fully exposed. We’re loving life and the gentle rocking of the boat sipping our coffee when we hear a tap, tap on the hull of the boat which scared the hell out of us; it was the coast guard boarding us. They got an eye full and they seemed to not want to go below to do their inspection as they wanted to gawk at Kathy and I. They spent a long time on the boat and one of them almost fell overboard when I got up to get Kathy and I a refill of coffee. The t-shirt was too short to pull down, so I didn’t even bother.
We set sail for home around 11 am as it was going to be a 6 hour trip. I was sunny myself on the bow making sure to keep out of the way of the large sails when Kathy said:
“Blackie and Jake never went one day without sex, never mind two”.
“They may eat us alive” I joked as Kathy laughed at my remark.
Kathy and I wore sundresses on the trip home, mine was yellow with white flowers and hers was a pale blue. They were short and looked sexy and pretty at the same time. Paul dropped us off at home as he went to pick up Blackie and Jake. I swear that Kathy and I started stripping off our dresses as soon as we entered the house. We quickly changed into our silk camisoles and panties as required and hurried downstairs to Blackie’s room and sat on the bed to await the arrival of our dogs.
We heard barking and the clicking of there nails on the floor as they followed our scent and ran downstairs to greet us. They came sliding into the room they were running so fast they couldn’t make the turn. Jake and Blackie bolted for us and Blackie whimpered as he licked my face. Jake did the same to Kathy before switching off and doing the same to me. Kathy spoke softly to Blackie as he responded to her voice. Kathy and I struggled to get the booties on the dog’s paws because they were so excited. I saw extra lights come on and knew that Paul was probably video taping us as there seemed to be cameras every where now especially in this room. Paul came in the room laughing:
“Blackie and Jake were so horny there cocks started to come out of their sheaths when they first saw me”
He didn’t have to tell us you could clearly see there cocks hanging down below there bellies and we haven’t even touched them yet.
Kathy got up and went and got down on the floor, making sure she was on the marks we had established for the cameras.
“Come here you spoiled brat” she called out to Blackie who bounced on over to her. He knew what she planned on doing and always looked forward to it. Unlike Jake who didn’t like his cock sucked, Blackie loved it. The dog got down on his side and then rolled over onto his back. Kathy touched his sheath and lightly jerked it as his cock quickly rose out of it. Kathy began to kiss the tip of the dogs cock giggling as she loved doing it as much as Blackie loved receiving it. She lovingly licked all over the dog’s shaft. Blackie got very still when he felt her lips on his cock, he seemed to love this and always seemed to want hers or mine loving lips around his cock. She kissed and licked the stiff rod putting her lips over it from the side and slid them up and down it like she was playing a harmonica. She had seen me do that many times before. The dog began to whine as the knot grew bigger and she licked his fast growing knot also.
Blackie coated her face with his pre-cum from his spraying cock until it was dripping from her jaw and chin onto her chest and big soft tits.
Kathy moved it about so the pre-cum would be all over her and
caught some of the last of it, in her mouth and swallowed hard. She knew Paul was watching so she showed off for him and the camera. She made sure he knew that she was swallowing all that Blackie could give her. She licked the tip and let it remain on her tongue for the camera as she had watched me do many times in the past. It still always looks hot and everyone but Jake who was very impatient loved it. She then let the tip enter her mouth and slowly let it slide deep until the knot was against her lips. She gagged from the dog’s cock being so deep in her throat and pulled it out of her mouth. You could hear her moaning and groaning as she truly loved pleasing this dog’s cock.
It only took about five minutes of sucking and tonguing
just below the tip until the dog began to jerk and pump his cock into her mouth rapidly. She let the first jets of dog cum run out and splash on her tits but then she was holding the dogs cock
in her open mouth, with her extended tongue, to show us she was taking it and that she was swallowed each spurt. She closed her lips around his cock and sucked him until his legs trembled and his head rose up to lick her face thanking her for a loving moment. When she finished sucking Blackie she sat up and licked the cum off her full tits she even sucked her own nipple into her mouth.
I could feel my pussy getting very wet watching Kathy finish sucking off the dog I was practically gushing. I wasn’t sure why I was so turned on as I kept thinking about my son Brad and what Paul strongly suggested that I do. I felt Paul’s eyes on me as I rushed over to Kathy to lick and kiss the dog cum from her face, lips and neck. I used my tongue to scoop up as much as I could from her face before the kissed a deep lover’s kiss. Jake was all over Kathy and I trying to nudge one of us over into position so he could mount us. We bought Jake as a trained dog and he really is but I wondered why he was so impatient about getting his knot out of us before it fully went down as he has such a large knot. I was glad we had put his booties on his paws as he was jumping all over us on the floor. He is such a big dog.
I got up on my hands and knees and arched my back raising my pussy and ass high into the air. Jake jumped behind me and started to lick my cunt. He dug his tongue deep into me causing me to moan like a whore. His wide tongue licked all over my pussy before he would move up and lick my asshole, sending shock waves through me. I knew he always did that but it still sent me higher each time and melted any resistance I might have. I would be his even if he always hurt me when he mounted me. I tried to spread my legs more and pushed back to make my ass more accessible to him. I could feel moisture run down my legs as the dog worked over my pussy and ass. I was being prepared by my dog lover so he could mount and fuck me. I was obliviously very willingly as I knew how much it please Paul when I gave myself fully to our dogs. It always seemed that the more I pleased Paul, the happier I was.
Jake was excited and made one more trip running around me before he jumped on my back and grabbed me very hard around my waist. The dog mounted my back and began to hump looking for entry of his long sharp tipped dog cock. I whimpered because I couldn't help him and support his weight and I was frustrated and could feel his hard cock jabbing and banging into my ass and thighs.
Jake was way to eager and it took him a long time of humping, jumping down, and getting back up, running around me until he mounted me again. With Kathy's quick help the dog drove his cock into my pussy on the first try. I cried out and stiffened as the hot dog cock was driven in my cunt. I grunted with each machine gun fast thrust he made into my pussy. Once again I could feel his fat cock grow inside of me as I slightly lowered myself and rose up my ass so he could fuck me deeper. I could feel the bulge, which would grow into his knot, I felt it each time it passed between my pussy lips and went into me. At first in and out it went. The hot tapered tip felt like it was bumping against my cervix and I bite my lower lip hard because of the pain. I was in much discomfort but I gasped.
"Oh yes Fuck, you have me,,,, you have me as your bitch oh god, its so good Fuck me Jake"
I moaned as the dog's cock hit a new spot inside my pussy and I could feel myself start to cum from the pounding of his cock. He fucked me so fast and always so hard. I knew my pussy was going to be sore again. Kathy placed her hands on my tits swaying in front of her and massaged them rubbing and pinching my nipples. She knew how much I liked that. Jake hadn't been fucking me for that long, but I knew I was about to cum again as the dog worked his knot inside of me. I was pushing back against the dog cock to get more of his cock and knot in my pussy as I started to cum again from the onslaught of this massive dog and his cock on my clit. I looked over at Paul and saw that he had a huge hard on and he was smiling at me and at this moment I wanted to do anything to submit to his will. I whimpered from Kathy massaging of my breasts and nipples as I was still cumming from the cock and knot of my dog lover and with Paul watching the three of us, it just added to my pleasure. I then push backwards unto the hard dog cock of Jake as I felt he knot slip inside of me as my pussy closed up around it.
I was whimpering and gasping for air as his knot grew and the big dog pounded his cock into my cunt until it fully swelled up and he slowed his relentless jabbing into my cunt before he finally stopped and remained still as I started to fell my four legged lover cum in my cunt.
"Oh baby, I love it he is cumming"
I cried out to let the others know. I lowered myself slowly so my chest was against the carpeted floor and wiggled my ass which felt great to me but as soon as Jake growled I stopped. Paul walked over to us and stuck his cock into Kathy’s mouth saying:
“Suck my cock my lovely bitch and make it wet”
I wished I was sucking his cock but I was Jake’s bitch right now. Kathy sucked his cock making it all wet and shiny. Kathy was on her knees sucking his cock and Paul pulled it out of her mouth and walked behind her and putting his hand on her back pushed her down until she assumed the doggie position, the same position I was in. With much fanfare he pressed the head of his cock against her asshole and just pushed it on in and Kathy tensed and groaned from the sudden sharp pain. Kathy’s ass was no more then a foot from me so I had a bird’s eye view of what Paul’s fat cock was doing to her. Kathy enjoyed pain but I felt her reach out her hand and grab mine, squeezing it a little as she did. Jake was starting to fidget on my back and I felt him shift his weight a few times. I could still feel his huge knot stretching my pussy so I prayed that he wouldn’t try and pull out of me now. I saw that Kathy was rubbing her clit as Paul continued to fuck her ass. I saw Kathy use her hand trying to coat Paul’s cock with some juice from her pussy. I had reached back and grabbed Jake’s tail in an effort to keep him in place in my pussy. I could feel Jake’s drool on my back as it soaked my silk camisole. Jake gave a pull of his cock in my pussy and I cried out.
“Oh please stop, it hurts so bad”
That got Kathy and Paul’s attention and I was surprised when he pulled his cock out of Kathy’s ass and walked behind me to help keep Jake in place.
“Easy now, just relax” Paul said and I am not sure if it was to the dog or me. I felt Kathy push the hair off my sweaty face as I had been cumming almost non stop and it had taken a lot out of me and I felt week and spent. Jake bucked again and I groaned in part because it hurt but also because it felt so fucking good. Kathy said:
“Jakes been in you for awhile, you alright honey?”
‘Yes” I hissed as Jake took that moment to pull again on his knot. Just as I thought that Paul had things under control, Jake started to jerk his hips over and over to get his knot out of my pussy. Dam did it hurt and I tried to move with him so he wouldn’t hurt me. He kept jumping around and it seemed the harder Paul tried to keep him in place the more he fought to get out and off of me. Jake and I fell over onto our sides again with his knot still inside of me. I felt like he was pulling me inside out. Paul grabbed his hind legs as he was kicking me so he wouldn’t scratch me. Blackie was also standing over me checking in to see what all the yelling was about. Kathy tried to get him out of the way as Jake jumped and bucked seriously trying to now pull out his cock. I screamed as he finally jerked it out of my pussy as my hand flew back behind me to make sure that I was okay. It felt like he took part of my pussy with him. Jake took a few licks at my pussy before walking off and flopping down against the wall to lick his cock clean. Silly dog didn’t know that even in pain I would have gladly done it for him. I felt Paul touch my pussy and saw him smear some dog cum on his cock as he went back over to Kathy to finish what he had started. Blackie our black lab being the sweetie that he is licked Jake’s cum from my pussy and off my ass. My sore pussy trembled as I had another mild climax.
I think the dog treating my pussy like he was trying to pull a cork from a bottle excited Paul as he was quickly filling Kathy’s ass with cum. The moment he pulled his cock from her ass she spun around to take him in her mouth and suck and lick him clean. She was a true submissive and moved being a nasty girl like me. I was still lying on the floor half on my side as Blackie kept licking my pussy. I had no intention of ever telling him to stop. Paul kissed me on the top of my head just before he left the room saying:
“I’m looking forward to Thursday; I know you’ll make me proud”.
Again with the Thursday I thought to myself, why is he pushing so hard for this? Doesn’t he have any feeling? Why does he want to do this to me? His few words “make me proud” had me shaking. I couldn’t believe the rush of emotions I was feeling from anger to love and even hate. I was really mad and I still couldn’t believe that he wanted me to do these things possible to and in front of, our son. The more I thought about it the madder I got. Kathy went to clean up and hurried off after Paul. I stayed down in Blackie’s room. I wished I still smoked I could sure use one right now. We did keep some liquor down here and I got up and poured myself a scotch. There wasn’t any ice but I drank it just the same.
I sat on the bed resting my back against the headboard as Blackie laid his head in my lap. I knew where this dog would be Thursday if I subsumed to Paul’s wishes. I gulped the large glass of scotch I poured myself and fumed about Paul’s remark and his desires to lead me down this dark path. Why I couldn’t understand it. Sure I know about his being sick but certainly there has to be a better way. Kathy says I should “go with the flow and submit”. That is Aunt Kathy saying that. My own son called me a slut and meant it in the same way his father does. I have come to understand from my many years being with Paul his father that being called a slut is an endearment from him and I have always gotten that from the sound and tone of Paul’s voice. I thought back to my phone call with my son and wondered if I had heard the very same thing. My son also said that I needed to be who I am, the submissive who does whatever she is told without thinking and questioning Paul before doing it. My son indicated that he wants me to do the same to him. Brad said that his Dad explained how women like me, need to be treated. Have I really sunk that low? How could I and how Paul could want me to. I questioned my logic and wondered if I wasn’t seeing the forest because of the trees.
I got up again and poured myself another large glass of scotch and took the bottle with me to one of our spare bedrooms. I would be sleeping alone tonight. I chatted online with my friend Doug and a little bit with two others. I was drinking heavy and using them as a sounding board. Sure it would have been easier to pick up a phone, but I find I can say so many more things freely when I chat. I was looking for consul to see which way I should turn.
I feel into a deep drunken sleep and I had vivid dreams about entertaining the company Paul had invited to our home on Thursday. I found myself enjoying myself with the two women, four men, two dogs and my 21 year old son. Paul had found a way to allow me to make him proud. It was so simple I was surprised that I didn’t think f it before. He blindfolded me so I didn’t know who I was with or that I could not see who I allowed myself to be a submissive to. In my dream I pleased everyone and every thing. I was the slut that Paul was still drunk from my heavy drinking from the night before. I was sweaty and flushed and my pussy was extremely wet from the depravity I experienced in my dreams. I laid there fighting the urge to touch myself and as my head began to clear I felt sick about my dark thoughts and my vivid dream. I looked at the time and called work to say I was taking some personal days and would not be in to work this week. I hardly ever use them so I knew no one would have any problems with that.
Tuesday was almost a repeat of Monday; I kept to myself and stayed in the spare room. Not sure what I was accomplishing by doing that as I could hear Kathy and Paul together at night. They seemed to be going at each other extra hard. But I was still very confused and mad about what Paul was telling me to do. In the afternoon I did submit to Blackie demands and he mounted me, I took his knot and had a nice tie with him and as soon as he got off of me Jake took me as he does, hard and fast. We had some trouble again with getting his knot out of me. I fully expect the police to show up one day at my door, thinking someone had murdered me.
Early Wednesday morning I drove Kathy to the airport for her business trip. She encouraged me once again “to go with the flow” and enjoy myself and be the submissive that I am. I kissed her goodbye and wished her a safe trip. I had an early morning meeting with a very good woman divorce attorney that I knew. I was very honest and told her everything from the very beginning up until now. She took all my tales about our depravity almost without batting an eye. She also mentioned she was thinking about getting involved with swinging and asked me a few questions about it. She explained what she felt I stood to lose if I left and asked the question so many others have asked over these last few very long days. Being that I have traveled so far down this long road, am I not really making a federal case out of just one more small step? When I came home Jake and Blackie were all over me so I obeyed the house rule and refused no male. So as I type these last few words at nearly 7 pm at night, I still don’t know what I will be doing tomorrow morning.
TO BE COBTINUED: ...
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